"It may be hard for an egg to turn into a bird: it would be a jolly sight harder for it to learn to fly while remaining an egg.  We are like eggs at present.  And you cannot go on indefinitely being just an ordinary, decent egg.  We must be hatched or go bad.

C.S. Lewis

Been 100% raw for nearly 4 weeks now.  My emotions and appetite seem to be all over the place at the moment.  I’m not tearful as I was but sometimes I feel very ‘connected’ and sometimes I don’t, it can change several times in a day.  I also feel like I should be eating more but don’t actually feel hungry.  It feels to me like i’m ‘removing another layer of the onion skin’ and that i’m going through some kind of change, some kind of blockage removal.  I think it’s a good thing but it feels very strange.  I just feel like I need to ride it out.  I’m going to get a decent nights sleep tonight and I may do a juice day to see if that helps.  I may get myself a colonic as well.  When I blog i’m now going to include information about what I eat, so here’s what I had today:  A green juice this morning; 2 pieces of raw chocolate; a trail mix of goji berries, sultanas and cacao; a lemonade juice (1/2 lemon with rind on, 3 apples, 4 sticks celery) after my run and visit to the steam room; humus with baby toms; one cup white tea.

My new mattress arrived yesterday and it’s lovely.  I ordered it about 6 weeks ago from Next.  It’s called a ‘Cambridge’, how funny!  I slept on it last night (as you do!) with newly washed bed covers, aaaaaahhhhh, nothing like it.  Makes it very hard to get out of bed in the morning though!

Everywhere I turn at the moment i’m being told to give thanks and be grateful.  It seems impossible for me to get through the day without having a conversation, reading an email, reading a book, looking at a website, in fact anything, without being told that gratitude is everything.  I see this message at least 3 times a day….ok, I get it!!!  Having just written that last bit, i’m not sure if I have got it actually.  I see the message but do I give thanks enough?  I’m making a commitment here and now to fill out my gratitude journal everyday next week!

Got in contact with a life coach on Friday.  Well, I sent an email making some inquiries.  It’s something i’ve always promised i’d do for myself when I qualified to be an ADI and am earning decent money, and now here I am.  There’s lots going on in my head at the moment with regards to relationships, opportunities, money and just about everything.  Someone is becoming very important to me in my life and has brought as many questions as answers to my awareness.  There’s going to be alot going on in my world in one way or another in the next 12 months.  It’s fantastic stuff and I feel like I need outside help to channel it all.  I think this life coach I contacted could be the one to help.  We’ll see.